Archive for August, 1978

1978-08-06

Sunday, August 6th, 1978

I long for eyes that I can love without a word
give me feeling all across the room
I can feel your skin and eyes, I can feel the room
and when I pass you in the hallway
my hand will touch your skin

I have lovers that I don’t love
and some I do that are wrong
and I wait with this endless ache inside
for the right one to come along
I’m dying someplace, loved as much as I am
for someone I can rejoice in
with out knowing from the start how it ends.

gallagher
06 aug 78

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

1978-08-09

Wednesday, August 9th, 1978

confusion mimics me, I try to understand
I fail to see that in the mirror glass
the thoughts I have in mind shape the answer
first and last

and so in spinning time the questions weave
and leave me winded by my logic’s futile try
and so confusion wins the greatest gain
against my feeble sight against my motive, pain

I hold the mirror in hand and is it friend or foe
I never seem to see yet I always try to know.

gallagher
09 aug 78 – my birthday

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

1978-08-12

Saturday, August 12th, 1978

I told her, “I am going to win.”
and I am.

If I have to run until I drop
and harden my eyes to only the visions I can handle
and if all my lovers depart me
and depression walks with its hand on my shoulder
I will win.

There’s no point otherwise, unless its to survive.
to run to exhaustion and work to absorption
and love to satiation and feel to utter permeation
do it all and survive as best I can.

I recall Joel’s “Zen sword of no sword.”
and my own, “Sanity at any cost.”
and I recall this afternoon’s rage and hurt,
so foolishly won, when I should have know better

I had nothing to gain but to pass some time
and so much to lose.

Next time, if I let myself in for pain,
it will be because the gain was worth the risk.
But…no matter, bold and considered, I will survive.

And, if love finds me short of some extreme,
I’ll give myself away again … willingly …
win or lose.

gallagher
12 aug, 78

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —