SamadhiMuse

      2-14-79 Happy Valentine's day, Dennis.
      (started poem 1-31-79)
           Problems there will always be, but someday I will be
      set free.
           Mortgages, bills, repairs once again cause me despair.
           Part of me wants to stay but soon I'll be far away.
      far from this house my home, and husband too -- he'll
      surely roam.
           Hollywood is not so great, but opportunities I'll
      take.  People there I hope to meet might help me get upon
      my feet.
           Prudential salesman just dropped by to collect on
      policies gone by.  Ernie wasn't to be found.  Why isn't he
      ever around?
           Nature's game is very cruel.  It makes us out to be
      such fools.  Six years of marriage ending now, but no more
      tears can I allow.
           Ted said Linda wanted a divorce, but she has not yet
      set her course.  Her dependence requires him to be strong
      even while other men string her along.
           Locked out of [my] house last Friday night.  I felt a
      sense of utter fright.  Mostly feeling so alone!  I'd just
      left Ted -- He'd went on home.
           Locked in to feelings deep within I called to Dennis
      who was not in but soon I fell towards his warm abode and
      spent the night.  So warm, secure was my refuge, I felt a
      sense of peace ensue.
           Rose does not think much of me but my world she'd
      NEVER see!  Nor could I understand her ways, ever in a
      million days.
           How did things get so all messed up??
           My disattachment to this mold of married life has
      grown so old.  It happened though it wasn't right when I
      lay with John that night.  Finally, when I let him go
      the void inside began to grow.
           I threw myself to job and school -- I'd never again
      be such a fool.
                     .
                      .
                       .
           But his voice on the phone so mellow and low, his
      eyes so green -- I feel the glow!  His beard I like, his
      sexy ways.  He makes me forget the lonely days.  He fills
      me up and sets me straight, and I forget all past mistakes.
           Where it's going I don't know, but I know I love him
      so --
                                    Love,
                                       Kathleen
                                       2-14-79

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

                                      Sat. 12 noon
      Hi D.G.!
           Believe it or not I just woke up!  I was exhausted.  I got
      here about midnight and was so shocked to see Frank and his
      girlfriend.  He was playing with [the] terminal.  I think they
      were just as surprised to see me.
           After having about 7 hours sleep the past two days really
      did me in.  I was supposed to be home this morning to see [the]
      tile man but right now I'm not caring.
           After they left last night I had some of our grass, 2
      glasses of Cribari and felt so very warm and secure.  Your
      place is so quiet too.  The phone rang at 11:30 a.m. - woke me
      up!!
           There is a lot more I want to tell you but it can wait
      until we get together.
           I've been thinking about you in mts.  Hope all goes well
      for both of you.
           Really looking forward to lunch on Monday.  My mon knows
      too!  (by the way -- since we are both broke -- I'll buy lunch,
      you buy a litre of wine? )
           I'll call you Mon. about 10 to confirm!
           You are such a super friend.  I'm going to have to tear
      myself away cause I love it here.  By the way, I love you too!
                           Talk to you soon!
                              All my love,
                              Kathleen

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

         But, his voice on the phone so mellow and low,
            his eyes so green ---
         I feel the glow
         His beard I like, his sexy ways
         He makes me forget the lonely days
         He fills me up and sets me straight,
            and I forget all past mistakes.
         Where its going --- I don't know,
         but I know I love him so ---
                           Kathleen A.
                           14 feb 79

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —