Archive for August, 1984

1984-08-11

Saturday, August 11th, 1984

Most of my life is easy…distractions
friends, peers, equals, sounding boards
those I’m defining myself with
and against.

But it gets harder when we press against
those unlike us in years or spirit;
our teenagers and preschoolers
and those we have to work with.

And yet how much of my energy do I spend
on the easy ground
and how sparsely do I meditate
on my sons and their growth.

gallagher
11 aug 84
san juan capistrano


— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

1984-08-22

Wednesday, August 22nd, 1984

There’s nothing
we can do about the nature of change
and yet
we still don’t like the negative
experiences

I used to get my confidence
thru big rewards

No more good than pasting feathers
on an egg to make a bird
will it do you to imitate

Sometimes we are a little afraid
we’re going to let life pass us by
in bars

22 aug 84
Irvine … smoking


— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

1984-08-22

Wednesday, August 22nd, 1984

Consciousness is an energy field in the mind
a certain amount of this field must be present
for consciousness to be self-sustaining
at less than this threshold the field
cannot maintain its cohesivety and fragments
thru the day the wake sleep cycle influence
the relative level of random firing
think of minute electrical fields sparking across the mind
the more of these small fields which activate per unit time
the more they tend to interpenetrate each other
until consciousness attains critical self sustaining mass
and can be aware of itself and will itself to continue
in sleep we’ve relinquished the self sustaining will
and the random firing levels drop below
that threshold at which we could maintain
consciousness we wanted to thereafter
drifting fragments of the disorganized field wax and wane
thru our mind like embers in the breeze
giving us small momentary partial awarenesses in sleep
and as these field fragments drift
like curtains thru the neon…
thru our memories and associative links… we dream.

gallagher
22 aug 84
smoking that stuff…

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —