SamadhiMuse » Helen O.

1978-08-03 When Helen Oflarety came around

Dennis — Thu, 03 Aug 1978 08:00:00 +0000

                  When Helen O. came around

         I'm thinking' about her and there's not much to say
         she just feels good in the easiest way
         this lady's got it and I'm blown away ... with love ... easy love
         We started talkin' and I had to smile
         she's kinda pretty and she's nobody's child
         she's quick as lightening and a little wild ... I'm in love
         There's so much in her that I've looked for
         she's complex and shows it, she's never a bore
         she's come thru some hard times and it made her much more
         I'm in love, ...and I want more.


                                 gallagher
                                 03 aug 78

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

1978-08-18

Dennis — Fri, 18 Aug 1978 08:00:00 +0000

They’re brusing’ me, these days
ever since I met her its been chaos in emotion city
the lady’s a razor … the lady’s just too much
the lady keeps me in free fall … in love.

She comes on electric … hyper
she’s got intelligence to burn … quicksilver mind
small and wiry … she’s been wounded and maimed
and her wit and opinions are quick to reclaim the loss

And her fantasies … she walked me thru them … a farmer’s son
dazzled my simple love and even acceptance
made love to my body … to my eyes … my hands
until I sustained a smile two days running … fantasy time

She’s a woman I’d give up a lot for and ache if it was enough
but she’s got a lot of past to sort before this could be real
she led me in because it felt so good, to love…to fall into it
but she’s not really ready to play
and I don’t know if falling in love can be put on hold

So, today, rinsed and drained … emptied … more real and yet less
I think I can learn to see her like the others, but not easily.
I want to love so simply … I want to love so singly
I don’t know why it should be so hard
why am I always loving someone else’s love?

gallagher
18 aug 78

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

1978-08-20

Dennis — Sun, 20 Aug 1978 08:00:00 +0000

Days … Days like these never were before in my life

Helen, like a fire in my mind and heart and body burns
and in the fire’s light I see my past for all it could’ve been.
She, more than anyone else I’ve known, is my kin
her eyes burn with all she sees, like mine
and she loves me like I’ve wanted to be loved
for a long long time.

gallagher
20 aug, 78

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

1978-08-28

Dennis — Mon, 28 Aug 1978 08:00:00 +0000

Kathleen A.
Helen K.
Kathi K.
and now, Helen O.

How rich it grows
the light seems to never lessen

Diana C.
Carol K.
Beverly S.
Suzanne S.

I can’t believe them all
each one some incredible wonder, joy.

I feel like Siddartha wandering among life’s lures
eagerly passing thru … touching each thing openly
no hurry … just learn and see
whose love, whose real … what I feel.

gallagher

28 jul 78

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

1978-08-29

Dennis — Tue, 29 Aug 1978 08:00:00 +0000

She said, “You like to walk on the edge?”
“Yes, I do, … Yes”, I said
and I looked across the space and into her eyes
and fell on over to the other side

Its by the edge that the strong survive
its on across that the dead come alive
she said, “You always seem so open and so real.”
and I thought, “I’m trying to stand all that I feel.”

Electric eyes, she has electric skin
I want to love you, I want to win
Love’s easily my hardest game
its oneness is an invitation to pain
and yet…and yet I open
again and again.

gallagher
aug 29, 78

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

1978-08-29

Dennis — Tue, 29 Aug 1978 08:02:00 +0000

            Overextended and hurting again
            is it only in love that I bend
            only here with my heart in a mess
            that I let my feelings come undressed
            its never easy…never thought it was
            this aching feeling that lingers from love.
                              gallagher
                              aug 29, 78

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

1978-08-29

Dennis — Tue, 29 Aug 1978 08:03:00 +0000

      Love’s confusing…its an overload dream
      I’ve got too many feelings and I don’t know what they mean
      quicksilver lady, i cannot pin her down
      quicksilver lady, her presence is a dream
      my easy drifting is gone without a trace
      our lover’s dancing all other time’s erased
      I’ve got to focus…I feel this more each day
      love should have its moments, but life’s the game I’d play
      come then, tell her… let her stay or slip away
      these days, so full of essences, to me just steps along my way
      I love this lady…she’s more mirror than I’ve seen
      but more than soft and easy…she’s a lover’s tangled dream.
                                 gallagher
                                 aug 29, 78

1978-08-29

Dennis — Tue, 29 Aug 1978 08:04:00 +0000

         To: Dennis Gallagher
         So much to tell you
         Dear Diary
         And yet --- My life runs in circles
         and spirals
         Sometimes forwards
         Sometimes at a standstill
         OH TIME: tell me
         Is it yet?
         Is he the ONE
         With whom I can settle?
         Put down more roots?
         Here is a woman
         Vital and loving
         Who will want her children?
         To spend TIME with.
         The gamble is the mystery
         and the solution is
               LIFE
                     Helen O'flarety
                     29 aug, 78

1978-08-30

Dennis — Wed, 30 Aug 1978 08:00:00 +0000

Ever more cryptic this grows
“We entertain each other” and
“I’ll do it all”.

The girl’s so complex in her thoughts
I cannot find my place
she’s got a dowery, she wants a man
she craves understanding, her words are soft as sand
she dances blindly and poses if she can
she speaks directly but never touches land

The process passes understanding,
resolve it if you can…

I wait a sign from her,
uncertain where I stand
the decisions are all interlocked
shall I sit or shall I stand?

gallagher
aug 30, 78

1978-09-01

Dennis — Fri, 01 Sep 1978 08:00:00 +0000

So all the confusion has come to this
that she lies sedated in some mental hospital
so beautiful…so intelligent…and incredibly, flawed.

Her house would’ve been too much tonight
to stay there with Sharon and Gary.
Every wall, every object saying,
‘she saw me as clearly as you,
she ordered me, she arranged me, she cared for me…’

I helped in her disassembly…for all her intelligence,
she just wasn’t made for for normal human stresses.

I was going to be strong, conservative, fight for my needs.
But hers, so immediate, just pushed her over some edge
when they were not immediately fulfilled
God, I ache for her…I love her
the part that was unflawed
was more than anyone I’ve known.

gallagher
september 01, 78