SamadhiMuse » 1989

1989-01-04

Dennis — Wed, 04 Jan 1989 08:00:00 +0000

Winter always comes.
Dan told Sharon and me about he and Tiffany
and my heart ached for him.

His first love and pain and loss
and I doubt I’ve learned much
20 years on.

Outside, rain and gray skies.
Inside, somewhere, Joan receeds with a slow ache
and Sharon acends.

Softness and steel, enlightenment and caution.

My futures murmuring … ’89 finds me
unfocused and unsettled
falling in love with a moving target.

She calls out the best in me
but, sometimes, I just want her to hold me
and, sometimes, she does.

gallagher
4 jan 89
san juan capistrano

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

1989-01-06

Dennis — Fri, 06 Jan 1989 08:00:00 +0000

Buddha says that if we want something,
we open ourselves to the possibility of disappointment
and someone else said we get what we need.

All that I know of women and karma and connectivity
is far too simple for she who now stands before me.

Companion, friend, lover, teacher
big challenge …

I cannot dominate her. I cannot lie or hide from her.
I cannot predict her or take her love and openhandedness
for granted.
And yet, she brings, gives, is
everything I want, without barter.

God, my friend, are you laughing there
where chance and destiny are woven?

Nicaragua, indeed entire continents, await.
Wind in their trees and passion on my pages.

She stands in front of me like elevator shafts
and vertigo.
God’s laughter is kind.

gallagher
6 jan 89
san juan capistrano

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

1989-01-11 Reflection on Rose

Dennis — Wed, 11 Jan 1989 08:01:00 +0000

Reflection on Rose

She’s so competant at being a real person
that you just don’t notice
that you don’t have anything
in common with her.

Bravo, I say, and with love.

gallagher
11 jan 89
san juan capistrano

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

1989-02-18

Dennis — Sat, 18 Feb 1989 08:00:00 +0000

                     I'm afraid to be alone
                     because my mother left me alone
                     so much.
                     Women are
                     not being alone.
                     I chose Joan
                     because I knew she would be
                     at least as addicted to me
                     as I to her
                     and after dealing with
                     open and unpredictable Lise
                     that was important.
                     I don't doubt loving Sharon
                     but I'm afraid
                     because her lack of visible addiction
                     brings back memories and fear
                     of the pain Lise gave me
                     and of being alone.
                                 gallagher
                                 18 feb 89

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

1989-02-18

Dennis — Sat, 18 Feb 1989 08:02:00 +0000

Why is it that our stories of the future
and our heros (sometimes)
represent a sane future
while we, here, cannot wakeup
and make it so.

gallagher
18 feb 89

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

1989-02-22

Dennis — Wed, 22 Feb 1989 08:00:00 +0000

Some debts need to be cleared
tonight I looked at some poems
that I’d missed in Rose’s poetry compilation
from a few years back.

And I found the first one I ever wrote about her
and the last one that ended and summed us.
And I felt all those years between
when the moonlite crossed Chris’ face in 86.

Now she’s married and pregnant and we’re easy friends
and I want to give her these things
to say ‘thank you, bless you, Rose.’
the best to you, whom I loved so long.

gallagher
22 feb 89
San Juan Capistrano

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

1989-02-25

Dennis — Sat, 25 Feb 1989 08:00:00 +0000

I understand why you and I work.
We both wanted someone with our own level of intelligence
and who would judge us based on our spiritual goals.
That’s where we live.
We could be with someone who judged us on grooming
or business acumen but what good would that be for us?
That you share the same spiritual goals is everything.
The fact that so much else falls into place nicely
is just gravy.
And maybe it means we’re going to get the issue of relationships
worked out this time and free and impower each other
at the same time.
If we, as two people, can get along
then it gives us credibility
if we turn our attention outward.
And, the best part of all this
is that I don’t know any reason why it can’t be so
and it’s what I want.

gallagher
san juan capistrano
25 feb 89

1989-02-27

Dennis — Mon, 27 Feb 1989 08:00:00 +0000

You go away
and I miss the touch of your skin
and the edge of your intelligence,
the pleasure of your sincerity.

But when you are gone
I reflect and read and exist
in the quiet spaces
and there are insights
and different contentments.

And as I seek for truth and light
you constantly come to mind
and I treasure these thoughts
even as I treasure your return.

gallagher
sjc
27 feb 89

1989-06-27

Dennis — Tue, 27 Jun 1989 08:00:00 +0000

Sanity isn’t something you lose and go insane
It’s something you have and you work on to get more.
It just depends on which way you look at it.

gallagher
Lincoln, NB

1989-08-09

Dennis — Wed, 09 Aug 1989 08:00:00 +0000

                 Smart people need to get control of power
                 or stop inventing the things they are capable of.

                                         9 Aug 89

                - after seeing the Oppenheimer story on PBS.