Kathi came back after two months
and a confused prod from me
I hadn’t missed her but I thought I did
before it was done melancholy had spoken to me
‘she’s not what I need’, her love and my confusion
they just leave both of us to bleed here
where we meet … I among my lovers
and she beside her marriage.
It cloyed on me … the energy it took to
maintain honesty and candor when we both
had such different needs, became too much.
Energy for what? it was going nowhere.
She asked, “Its over because I love you?”.
and I replyed, “Yes, if you didn’t and it was casual
then it wouldn’t have mattered that it
was a pointless relationship … no one would have taken it
seriously. It would have taken nothing from either of us.”
With the strength and integrity I’ve so admired in her
she dealt with this, and without recriminations or retaliation
walked out decidedly … in tears.
she’s one hell of a person …
I’ll never understand why I didn’t love her.
gallagher
Long Beach – about Kathi K.
12-30-78
— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
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