Ever more cryptic this grows— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
“We entertain each other” and
“I’ll do it all”.
The girl’s so complex in her thoughts
I cannot find my place
she’s got a dowery, she wants a man
she craves understanding, her words are soft as sand
she dances blindly and poses if she can
she speaks directly but never touches land
The process passes understanding,
resolve it if you can…
I wait a sign from her,
uncertain where I stand
the decisions are all interlocked
shall I sit or shall I stand?
gallagher
aug 30, 78
Archive for the ‘People’ Category
1978-08-30
Wednesday, August 30th, 19781978-09-01
Friday, September 1st, 1978So all the confusion has come to this— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
that she lies sedated in some mental hospital
so beautiful…so intelligent…and incredibly, flawed.
Her house would’ve been too much tonight
to stay there with Sharon and Gary.
Every wall, every object saying,
‘she saw me as clearly as you,
she ordered me, she arranged me, she cared for me…’
I helped in her disassembly…for all her intelligence,
she just wasn’t made for for normal human stresses.
I was going to be strong, conservative, fight for my needs.
But hers, so immediate, just pushed her over some edge
when they were not immediately fulfilled
God, I ache for her…I love her
the part that was unflawed
was more than anyone I’ve known.
gallagher
september 01, 78
1978-09-02
Saturday, September 2nd, 1978I see her clearer all the time— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
she looks and judges quickly
and her judgments have large components
made from her emotional needs and biases
which she, of course, cannot see
because of her lack of the fair witness
and introspection
She announces how it is and then speaks loudly
in an attempt to dominate the situation
and drive home her view
and its all so illogical to start with
She says, ‘Yes, I believe it, prove me wrong!’
and I’m always left tearing her structures down
self-defensively …
she never starts from unbiased ground
And now she wants me to let her back in, emotionally
and even as she pledges recalitrance and submissivness
she drives her illogical a priori views home
like emotional wedges and never sees
her lack of logic or due process.
gallagher
2 September 78