Archive for July, 1975

1975-07-24

Thursday, July 24th, 1975
         I give myself away for ego trips
           but I do nothing for those I love.
         We haven't worked together on anything
           for a long time....
         Poetry, spice racks, camping, saving,
           none of it's gotten done.
         She gives as much of herself as she can
           and still stand alone
         and I give as little of my self as I can
           and still keep her....
         Why have I come this way?
           Why am I throwing all my love away?
         Ignorant to the end, fighting my fears
           I rage, unable to stem
              my fantasies or my tears.
                                 gallagher
                                 24 jul 75

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1975-07-28

Monday, July 28th, 1975
            What emptiness fill me each time at the thought
              that she could share with another
                 that which she and I sought.
            That there are places and times
              not mine to receive
            these I find like holes in my thoughts
              when I leave her.
            The karmic whip betrays at every step
              my treasured fantasies all played quite inept
            I can expect nothing from her
              but what I expect from myself
            and I find that love and trust
              were my only true wealth.
                                    gallagher
                                    28 july 75
            - about Rose

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —