The concert continues … the players rearrange themselves
careful not to lose your identity as the roles change
what you are must be independent of who you’re with
or you can lose yourself if they leave.
The evening allowed me my time alone
the music, the running, the book by Irwin Shaw
that Kathy gave me … I think on every page…she read this.
I’m thirty … is it so bad … I love … am loved
if someone comes, stays or leaves … is it so bad?
can it be so bad if I am constant, if I can resist
the maddening urge to ‘need’ love in order to feel OK
resist the urge to invest myself
at the first sign of acceptance from another.
Just love them as they are, as they come…
am I a coward … Kathi said I hedge my bets
but she says this from inside a marriage
I just don’t know … I’ll invest all I can
without losing myself or my beliefs
and if its too hard, I’ll pull back.
I cannot do better
win or lose
and so the concert continues….
gallagher
11 september 78
— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
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