Kathi came back after two months— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
and a confused prod from me
I hadn’t missed her but I thought I did
before it was done melancholy had spoken to me
‘she’s not what I need’, her love and my confusion
they just leave both of us to bleed here
where we meet … I among my lovers
and she beside her marriage.
It cloyed on me … the energy it took to
maintain honesty and candor when we both
had such different needs, became too much.
Energy for what? it was going nowhere.
She asked, “Its over because I love you?”.
and I replyed, “Yes, if you didn’t and it was casual
then it wouldn’t have mattered that it
was a pointless relationship … no one would have taken it
seriously. It would have taken nothing from either of us.”
With the strength and integrity I’ve so admired in her
she dealt with this, and without recriminations or retaliation
walked out decidedly … in tears.
she’s one hell of a person …
I’ll never understand why I didn’t love her.
gallagher
Long Beach – about Kathi K.
12-30-78
Archive for December, 1978
1978-12-30
Saturday, December 30th, 19781978-12-30 The Women
Saturday, December 30th, 1978The Women— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
I’ve taken women as they’ve come
ladies from anywhere, 2 blocks down, the casual affair
my life is filled with what’s easy and light
passion for passion’s sake, like for like
I’m just drifting with anything that’s fair
lover’s and friends who too casually care
What am I doing? … I could hug thin air
for all the meaning I’m living, for all the more that I care
Some have good bodies and some are smooth and fair
some think like my sister, some have that passionate flair
some I loved like the raging storm, some are long suffering
some are just comfortable and warm, some are just there
My love’s gone drifting, to what ever comes along
I hear so much music though I wait for just one song
I wait for one lady to show me I’m wrong.
gallagher
30 dec 78