Kathi K.— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
Conjunction marred by a mismatch in love
we look thru different glasses
she loves me with magic and depth
and I care for her deeply, but not the same
Intelligence, passion, ideals, … so much.
She read a list I made
of all the things I want in a woman
and she wondered where she missed
I read it too, then, and reflected …
I don’t know either
she’s there in every respect
with more of each thing, and in balance,
than any of these others that confuse my feelings
and yet … and yet some deep magic
will not quicken
I know I must trust my feeling
or put my life into limbo
but I don’t understand any more than she
why it is so … why must my compassion and integrity
struggle blind while she loves unrepaired.
gallagher
Long Beach
10-14-78
Archive for 1978
1978-10-14 Kathi K.
Saturday, October 14th, 19781978-10-14
Saturday, October 14th, 1978How easily the evening rises up to meet me— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
and exploded warm in my stomach
senses coming alive … forms beginning to fall away
I’m getting high
what’s there to say
…I’m going to fly.
gallagher
14 oct 78 – LSD
1978-10-17
Tuesday, October 17th, 1978San Pedro’s empty, the day’s as gray as ice— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
friends departed…the feeling’s not nice
Kathy’s gone from Nichols now my lunch times lonely
I didn’t realize how her presence in a nearby room
had lent the air of caring to this harbor’s gloom
real beyond titles and real beyond roles
we could feel our emotions and touch and be friends
she had her problems and I, mine…
confusions and wantings…we crossed society’s lines
and if last names carried stories, our first names were fine
we never carried expectations beyond the easy times
time conspires, the winter unwinds itself
the lines to friends grow distant and fine
some node born of autumn in the shorter day’s winds
is drawing me straight thru it
my current conjunction of sins
gallagher
1 oct 78