Kathy M. IV— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
Engraved like stuben glass, her face
against the sunlight … telling me no
she wasn’t confused about how she felt
about me
about her marriage and her life, yes…
but about me, … no ….
I could have wished it otherwise
my emptiness told me
but I came here for the truth
either way … to feel it,
to embrace it.
Even now I want to run and say, ‘stay’,
that I can be JUST friends
share smiles and lunches and friendship
endure for the magic of your smiles
and the candor of your spirit.
But why say this …
the sight of her will be enough
to unmoor me in the days to come
when against all feeling I’ll ignore her
and against all reason, … fail.
gallagher
30 jun 84
Irvine
Archive for 1984
1984-01-30 Kathy M. IV
Monday, January 30th, 19841984-01-31
Tuesday, January 31st, 1984This evening waits against my empty heart.— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
It’s come to rest… footsteps die away.
Motors drone and light bulbs blaze of ice.
I’m alone and all up against myself.
The silence claws, begs me… for relief.
A letter’s started, dies, for nothing’s brief.
I willed to face it, the neon aching time,
without distractions, to edge up to some line.
gallagher
31 jan 84
irvine
1984-02-01
Wednesday, February 1st, 1984
Why do we struggle so...
we who are just indefinite moments
of indistinct clarity.
Small perceptions astride eternal purpose
fragments of evolution's imagination
minor reflections in the ocean of her.
Unable to stop her birth pangs
we live as froth from her caldron's brew
and live and die...beneath her swell.
We who have only to create ourselves
and our progeny here
where the sun's excess showers us.
Here, close to the flame
where entropy run reversed
here...we search for our name.
gallagher
01 feb 84
Irvine
— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —