SamadhiMuse

                  First day without Lise
                  and everytime the phone rings
                  it cuts like a knife.
                  If she calls at all
                  it may be days or weeks,
                  if she calls at all.
                                 gallagher
                                 21 Nov 85
                  – in the afternoon of my ultimatum

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

            Oh dear God,
            have I done so much harm to others
            that I should deserve such pain?
            I’ve let myself love a woman
            until she’s the very sunshine to me
            and now she’s going to fade
            as if it all never was.
            I’ve given pain so easily
            but when it’s my turn
            I bear it so poorly.
            I do want her in my life
            but I’ve never said so.
            I thought loving her
            beyond all measure was enough
            but, apparently, she felt no future
            amid those storms of love.
            And now, I may loose her
            because I was not decisive
            and, if I loose her
            I don’t think I can bear it.
                                 gallagher
                                 21 nov 85
            – waiting at Lise’s for her to come home
            after she’s told me she slept with Anthony.

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

               And this man, Anthony, comes
               and sees in a moment
               what’s so special in her
               and he knows he wants her
               and he speaks directly
               to her buried discontent
               which I never believed serious
               beneath the love
               which I though solved all
               and now she’s torn
               and I’m dying.
                                 gallagher
                                 21 Nov 85

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —