Archive for the ‘Exposure’ Category

1978-05-31

Wednesday, May 31st, 1978

Petulant child-boy-man your lovers come and go your hours pass like leaves you haunt them as well as yourself honestly sharing the bits and pieces you stand proud and vain in awe of your own excesses of sensual gratification and your lack of true motivations or ideals

I feel the days slipping by wine and passion blurs the scenes the honesties and sharings are less real we press each other amid the days to prove again that we, they, are real but evening draws on and I tend to forget again what its all about

I love them all so differently but does it matter ... does it? its just another way to pass the time more pleasant than most, perhaps, but with no more meaning

Love is just a motion with out the soul's need and loving just an act without the passing of life's seed

Petulant and so confused I play without my heart in this game where shadows bleed.

gallagher

31 may 78

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

1978-07-04

Tuesday, July 4th, 1978

 
  Paused for a moment on the edge of all the future
     all our lives will surely tangle or unweave now
     and all of these potentials,
     like hands on my shoulder, steady me.
  So let it begin and all the rest of my life go on
     I no longer wait or care for the past to resurrect itself
     this life can be invested in my future now
  I can weave and sort my friends and lovers into the days of my life
     I want to walk out each day excited
     about what could happen again
     and care nothing for what has gone by
  I've been too long tangled with the old ways
     so carefully unknotting our lives and feelings
     learning that exquisite patience that lies half way
     between compassion and self preservation
  But, its done... let me depart and begin anew
     this time not to bury my freedom with love and security
     or to hold myself untouched by love's whip and passion
  I want to find that balance point there in my heart, between...
     there, where on the edge of my best,
     I can live each day like it was the last
  I want to dance to life's mysteries and paradoxes
     as the fountains dance to the wind and the mimes to the crowd
     these things are not to weep for
  and, sometimes ... in those graceful but oh so brief moments,
     perhaps in a lover's eyes or in a passage of my son's growth
     I'll see something behind it all ...
     timeless ... smiling thru at me
  Brother Methuselah, here in all of us as we gamble our lives
     untouched yet compassionate ... he waits for us to begin
     and he smiles at us, a spiritual joy and promise within.

 
                                 gallagher

 
                                 07-04-78

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

1978-07-28 Eastern Fire

Friday, July 28th, 1978

                     Eastern Fire


Helen ... unfolds like a flower ... stories pass her lips to my wonder ... I,
so unseeing behind my blind passions ... had no conception
of her spirit or her beauty or her depth before


She easily matched me because she is the same
logical and controlled and passionate and willful, all together
her secret spaces eluded my empathy and I thought it to be the culture


But in the soft light, after, she told me of her coming
of Toronto and Vancouver and the places she left behind
and of her lover and of the Canadian strawberry fields


One hundred pounds of fire and logic silhouetted in my doorway
black raven's hair; the light plays on her face thru my new understandings
and I smile to see what a good friend has been my lover all along.


                              gallagher


                              07-28-78 - about helen k.


                              long beach




— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —