SamadhiMuse

            I got the rain coming down on me
            I got the rain but the pain’s for free.
            Its like they told me
            a long time ago;
            the things that come down on you
            are the things you need.
            If it comes down to it,
            I know I can win,
            If winning means
            that I survive.
            I won’t stand on that road
            when the heavy trucks come by
            because when I see those headlights
            I’ll remember how to fly.
            Its been a long time since I’ve felt like this;
            with my heart doors closing and my feelings on the run.
            I’ve left Rose stranded at the end of our long stand
            to turn and find Lise saying, ‘I’ve found another man.’
            And she says its nothing but, perhaps,
            the thrill of the chase.
            and she says she’d like to see him,
            and she lays my peace to waste.
            I don’t own her, so there’s nothing much to say
            but I wish this deadly fear of loosing her
            would stop and go away.
                                    gallagher
                                    20 November 85

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

            I’ve been going around in circles all day
            bouncing between a resentful jealousy
            and a readiness to reject her
            before she really hurts me.
            And, sometimes, a flash of understanding
            of the true dynamics here…
            An recognition that unless I love her
            as she is, come what may,
            there is no possibility
            that she will ever love me
            as I want to be loved by her.
                                 gallagher
                                 20 Nov 85

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —