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1982-11-17 Bhagwan knocking

Wednesday, November 17th, 1982

Bhagwan knocking

I read Bhagwan just before I went to sleep
and awoke to find my self drawn to paper by my thoughts.
Itching me, burning me, his words brought me awake
with thoughts that seemed to cut through
the dreams I normally live.

I’ve drifted and doubted under the incredible pressure of friends
until Oregon and the experience I had there
has drifted into the library of my memories
and I’m once more unconscious and a-churn
with the pressures of what to do with my life.

But, when he speaks it rings with utter truth
that while I listen and remain aware
my life and purposes, cares and concerns
are cast into a doubt more profound and meaningful
by the lack of any arguments or reasons given.

If I go again I will surely take Sanyas.
I can feel the pull from here.
Should I light the candle I won’t let burn?
He asks nothing if not all
and ( though no one believes it )
he asks nothing but for me.
My love, my awareness, my being.
He says do them, take them, be them.
I point the way, I am the gate.
Listen, experience, become … more.
I am a living example.

And I stand awe struck and amazed
by music no one here ever seems to hear.
Is it me or is it them?

No one here has any real purpose
and He says there is none
but he’s happy with that
and look at us here.

And the night goes on.

gallagher
17 Nov 82


— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

1983-01-12 On Sophies choice

Wednesday, January 12th, 1983
                        On Sophie's choice
         Let me look ... let the light freeze just there
            on these love worn hands and new grayed hair
         softly now ... go and see your child
            go and look ... with your eyes that can feel and smile
         That your children, so loved, can die ... its unbelievable
            their small coats still buttoned up.
         And your wife, with her warmth at night
            and all those photograph albums shared
               and the cups she's dried with care
                  and the small wrinkles that seem to run
                     where once was young and fair.
         Go, my friend, and walk the house and touch the wood
            and sit among it ... your midnight kin
         and let the walls come round you ... and the moments wait
            while you think how frail, ...how frail is this love
         That a child, you've dressed for school can die,
            a bullet's glove, on a concrete step.
         And that the woman who's shared all those years
            can become just a statistic 
               in some foreigner's newspaper
         Some day these all, the child, warm wife, and wood
            could be torn from your page of life
         and your cups go broken ... and their skin grow cold
            while pitiless politicians
               vie for their intangible goods....
                                    Gallagher
                                    12 January 1983
                                       Dallas, TX
 

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

1983-01-13

Thursday, January 13th, 1983

I wonder, as I listen to Bhagwan’s words
if the difference he defines
between knowledge and knowing
doesn’t have something to do
with the difference between holistic
and sequential modes of perception…
sort of like an apparatus we control
the F stop.
Full open is holistic with full parallel processing
the ego dead because nothing can exist
separate from the process?
letting the past, as memory or judgment
come in is analogous to dividing the task
forming alternatives or sequentiality into it
closing the aperture…
attenuating the sensitivity…
biasing the wait….

01-13-83


— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —