I almost made some unforgivable mistake— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
with Rose and my children.
Almost cut us loose from each other
to drift until the ends of our lives
and not know
what we could have been to and for each other.
When I see the hand of God move
I’m never sure which side or why
and the closer passes the stroke
the less anything
resembles what went before.
gallagher
1/20/86
Archive for the ‘Rose’ Category
1986-01-20
Monday, January 20th, 19861986-01-20
Monday, January 20th, 1986Rose, it gave me such a pleasure— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
to help with the children when you were sick today.
I know I wasn’t as much help as I could have been
fussing with the phone and the newspaper
but it made me realize what you do with them
like a farmer who digs his hands
deep into the soil that is his life.
You see them as life brimming, raw with promise.
A treasure of people just beginning.
A future world you can mother and comfort.
It was such simple pleasure to smile and hold them.
They saw my feelings and responded to me.
But you had already made that place
where I came to visit and open to them.
It was a day well spent and badly needed.
Somethings cut deeper than others
and you’ve found one, my lover, wife, and friend.
You nurture them and me in the sunshine
of your love and cherishing
and I see now
how you let God work through you.
gallagher
1/20/86 #2
1986-03-08
Saturday, March 8th, 1986A few days away from everyone— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
and, finally, some perspective.
It’s becoming clear I want to become
platonic with Rose for both our sakes
and it’s clear also
that Joan’s idea of going slow is good.
Rose and I will never be
what the other’s looking for
and Joan and I or anyone else
can never succeed
unless I can approach love
in a centered way.
I’ve fallen into Joan so quickly
and felt her presence so strongly.
What about just me, alone …
no Rose, no Joan, no Lise.
Just me, centered, happy, and optimistic
and realistic.
That’s someone worth sharing with another.
gallagher
8 mar 86