Winter always comes.— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
Dan told Sharon and me about he and Tiffany
and my heart ached for him.
His first love and pain and loss
and I doubt I’ve learned much
20 years on.
Outside, rain and gray skies.
Inside, somewhere, Joan receeds with a slow ache
and Sharon acends.
Softness and steel, enlightenment and caution.
My futures murmuring … ’89 finds me
unfocused and unsettled
falling in love with a moving target.
She calls out the best in me
but, sometimes, I just want her to hold me
and, sometimes, she does.
gallagher
4 jan 89
san juan capistrano
Archive for the ‘Sharon’ Category
1989-01-04
Wednesday, January 4th, 19891989-01-06
Friday, January 6th, 1989Buddha says that if we want something,— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
we open ourselves to the possibility of disappointment
and someone else said we get what we need.
All that I know of women and karma and connectivity
is far too simple for she who now stands before me.
Companion, friend, lover, teacher
big challenge …
I cannot dominate her. I cannot lie or hide from her.
I cannot predict her or take her love and openhandedness
for granted.
And yet, she brings, gives, is
everything I want, without barter.
God, my friend, are you laughing there
where chance and destiny are woven?
Nicaragua, indeed entire continents, await.
Wind in their trees and passion on my pages.
She stands in front of me like elevator shafts
and vertigo.
God’s laughter is kind.
gallagher
6 jan 89
san juan capistrano
1989-02-18
Saturday, February 18th, 1989 I'm afraid to be alone
because my mother left me alone
so much.
Women are
not being alone.
I chose Joan
because I knew she would be
at least as addicted to me
as I to her
and after dealing with
open and unpredictable Lise
that was important.
I don't doubt loving Sharon
but I'm afraid
because her lack of visible addiction
brings back memories and fear
of the pain Lise gave me
and of being alone.
gallagher
18 feb 89
— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —