Ego, the greatest enemy I’ve ever had in my life.— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
It blinds me with false evaluations
and makes me act in ways
that are not in my best interest.
Simple and solid are best
unless the ego says ‘bigger and better’
The same competitive profit motive one upmanship
that I mock in so many ways
lives at the bottom of my ego.
Bitter taste when my eyes see clear for a moment
I must have risen to my peter principle level
I seem to be so blinded by the bullshit.
How can I guard against this insidious love killer?
I remember a time, but I’m not sure how,
when I used to be mostly free
but, somehow, my own advancement’s success
sucked me back in … insidious ego
All I see is a wasteland of people, just like me
bound by the mirrors in their hands
unable to let free the love
they could give for free.
gallagher
16 september 78
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1978-09-16
Saturday, September 16th, 19781978-09-17
Sunday, September 17th, 1978 Coping with my disease
is hard enough for me alone
yet I seem to inflict my pain
on others who don't deserve it.
Sitting up in the middle of the night,
trying desperately to sort me out
is an exhausting process.
Even medication cannot keep me forever.
He sleeps in there - I can't disturb him
God, - will you hold my hand
through this night?
can you tell me about my tomorrows?
Why is just living hard for me?
I am at the border of society
always peeking in but never "normal"
he calls me hyper and wild.
I have been reading his poetry.
He knows me well for such a short knowing:
Am I that transparent.
Why, God, is change so difficult?
These episodes of pain are wearying
why am I so reactive to events
that in the perspective of time
are so insignificant?
Helen O'flarety
September 17, 78
written at my apartment
— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
1978-09-17
Sunday, September 17th, 1978 This love is so new ---
on a rose, a drop of dew
that needs protection
from scrutinization
This love makes me spin.
That line is so thin
that I'm walking
I feel like balling.
This love is so strong ---
who knows if it will last long?
I can't shut out the past,
but I ask: can it last?
This love brought on a new light,
so strong I stay up the night ---
wondering if it fits me,
knowing I want and need thee.
You question as vehemently as I.
Your questions raise me high.
And I dash me down ---
am I but a clown?
Please give me time, my love,
nothing else to think of ---
it may be a fantasy of mine,
but I hope to make it reality in line.
Helen O'flarity
september 17, 78
written at my apartment
— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —