SamadhiMuse

                     MEDITATIONS
      I resolve that the most important thing confronting me
        is the task of becoming what I want to become.
      I recognize that, when at brief moments, I become conscious,
        I know what I want.
      And that what I want is to retain this awareness
        and there is no way to do this
          short of wanting it more than anything else.
      I want to become what I want when I am conscious.
      I want to be the master of my physical body’s(mind’s) condition
        within those limits that my age and genetic inheritance impose.
      And if faith or will power
         can gain me more than that
            then I want that too.
      My body (mind) is mine if I will claim it.
      I want the manifestation of my consciousness
        to become my conscious foreground
      and the details of my life; its work, its involvements,
        to become the background.
      but its details must be executed to perfection
        because my consciousness of their execution is a reflection
          of my deeper commitment to conscious awareness
            in all that I do.
      It is not that I lack the ability to conceive what I want
        in my moments of clarity.
      It is more that I cannot maintain the awareness
        of what I want.
      I slip back into unconsciousness; physical gratifications,
        into my unconscious animal reactions
          to each moment’s passing stimuli.
      Its not that I should deny my physical nature
        but that I should experience it without lapse
          of awareness of my deeper want…
            to remain conscious.
                                       04-09-80
                                       Portland, Maine

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