Another vision in the morning’s light …— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
I remember Vadim of France
and the succession of beautiful women he’d found
and loved and, according to the gossip sheets,
lost.
They say lost but I think loved … and freed.
When I read about him a deep admiration stirred
within me.
I remember when I met Lise she asked me,
“Why do you go around picking up waitresses,
do you like the feeling of power or something?”
and I though then that she was crazy to think that way.
Of all the women I’ve loved
only she has awoken (or remembered herself).
In the others always grew dependency for my love,
grew the conviction that because, at that moment,
I could help them, that I was inherently the stronger.
And none of them flowered and found what I saw hidden
except Lise.
I am NOT Vadim and Lise is not Catherine Deneuve
but something not unlike them has happened here.
The husks of her insecurities have fallen away
and she had begun to remember her true power.
It stirred me to deep love to see her growth …
now she is lean and confident and sexy,
now the brashness of the young Parisian rebel
has surfaced again and she is so beautiful.
And in me all this has uncovered my insecurities.
I fell in love with her
as if I could hold her or own what I saw.
How strong, how very strong Vadim must be that
all those tremendous women have all gone on
and thay are all friends, still.
I want this, …
I can feel this.
Lise has grown and taught me much about women
and about myself
and now that I’ve tasted it …
I want more.
gallagher
6 dec 85
Archive for the ‘1985’ Category
1985-12-06
Friday, December 6th, 19851985-12-06
Friday, December 6th, 1985What lightening days these.— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
In strobe flashes, its coming.
Can you hear me, Lord?
I’m willing to bear
such beauty and chaos.
Alive and close, so close am I
to something I can’t name….
These moments and feelings
are stripping me down.
Right now I want to dance
in the power of it.
And Lise, she is part of it
in some way
I can no longer fathom.
She said it this morning,
“We needed each other”
Her emergence has catalyzed my own
and, for this moment, she’s driving me
close to the very edge of my potential.
gallagher
6 dec 85
1985-12-07
Saturday, December 7th, 1985 Sat. eve. Dec 7, 1985
Dear Dennis,
(special guy!)
It's so nice we can talk with each other about
anything. It isn't everyone, as you know, I can rap
with like that.
I'm truly sorry your relationship didn't work out.
An exclusive, deep & trusting man/woman relationship
is so hard to find unless both people are willing to
"really work" at it together. Better to find out now
what she was about than months or even years later. I
can't believe she had much substance in her to leave
you for some jerk off the street.
As a friend who really loves you I must tell you
this: Any woman truly in love with a man would not be
able to understand his semi-involvement with his
ex-wife; not if she eventually wanted him truly, with
commitment, for only herself. The majority of woman,
real woman, DO WANT THIS.
My friend John is not divorced yet but doesn't see
his ex- I don't think. He tells me he is starting
proceedings the first of new year. I won't continue
seeing him if he doesn't -- NOT BECAUSE of selfish
reasons on my part but rather that he should get on
with his life & perhaps find a beautiful relationship
he never thought possible. (of course I can't be hurt
anymore either). Loving, feeling, caring, etc. are
magnified to unbelievable boundaries when just two
people have that extra energy & sharing for "just each
other".
We find so much about ourselves in times of
loneliness and stress. I work everyday to get a bit
more centered & not to crave the male to the point of
feeling unsatisfied with my own life, BY MYSELF.
Needing the opposite sex is so natural, but to the
extreme it's dangerous. It's safer to see more than
one person; but in the end, where does it get you?
Dennis, I don't mean to be going on and on, I'm
just speaking from the heart. ____Since I've left Tim,
I've done a lot of re-evaluating of myself & what makes
ME happy. Sometimes just to get away by myself to
think helps.
Tried calling you tonight to see if you wanted to
drop by. (Since I assume you're a free man on
weekends, now). I've been cramming, like the word, for
days. What a relief when these finals are over.
Hope to see you between 18, and Christmas.
Love,
Kathy
— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —