Premonition II— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
Little feet .. ‘Daddy, love me!’
Pillow fights and the odd toy on the rug.
The echos are here in the silence
when Christopher is gone.
All of five,
and he has so much of my love.
Once we’ve had a family, how can we go back
to not having one?
The sterile rooms, the empty sheets,
silent telephones,
that waiting for nothing
I’m walking, here, on the edge between…
between Rose and Lise and something else.
A naked fear that knows my name
when they’re all gone.
I must have had some experience
in another life
that I can hear so clearly
what the future could hold for me.
And yet … and yet
all I want is to feel loved
and exist in this world, free.
But all I see sometimes
are five year old eyes….
gallagher
10 nov 85
Archive for the ‘Years’ Category
1985-11-10 Premonition II
Sunday, November 10th, 19851985-11-11
Monday, November 11th, 1985 I just want new words to say
how I feel about you.
Lise
11 Nov 85
— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
1985-11-20
Wednesday, November 20th, 1985I got the rain coming down on me— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
I got the rain but the pain’s for free.
Its like they told me
a long time ago;
the things that come down on you
are the things you need.
If it comes down to it,
I know I can win,
If winning means
that I survive.
I won’t stand on that road
when the heavy trucks come by
because when I see those headlights
I’ll remember how to fly.
Its been a long time since I’ve felt like this;
with my heart doors closing and my feelings on the run.
I’ve left Rose stranded at the end of our long stand
to turn and find Lise saying, ‘I’ve found another man.’
And she says its nothing but, perhaps,
the thrill of the chase.
and she says she’d like to see him,
and she lays my peace to waste.
I don’t own her, so there’s nothing much to say
but I wish this deadly fear of loosing her
would stop and go away.
gallagher
20 November 85