Archive for July, 1978

1978-07-04

Tuesday, July 4th, 1978

Party days…running together…wine and friends
day after day the hours give way to our next plans
Kathleen and Mike and Elmer and Joel and Richard…mixing
The chief chemists…the speech I gave…the party after
Kathleen bombed and all of us smiling
The next day, so unbelievably removed from our lives
we laughed the hours…loved the sun…and kissed our smiles
between our life passages we find such peace, rarely

Mike came from Sacramento for the weekend
an old friend…good friend…he shared my hours and my house
and listened to my life’s whispering as I turned it pages
and Elmer, in from Reno…1st time in a year
Mike and Elmer and I…drinking beer all night, easy friends
the beach…the movies…the restaurants
the love making…the conversation Kathy and I had
when we were so tired as we rambled and wrestled
with more than we could hope to grasp at our best
such pleasant pain.

gallagher
4 july 83

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

1978-07-04

Tuesday, July 4th, 1978

Talking to her eyes … I looked to find peace there
and to hold it to me to save me from life’s fears
Ah lady, … how can any of us love and have freedom, both?
insecurity and fear bay at every gate
and we’ll never find the line
between what we want and what can be agreed
but, for wonder, we talked about it … I holding her hand
and looking into her eyes to see the fears…
so rich to say it … life’s mysteries and paradoxes here, today
in this lady I love so …
so close and yet, … so far away
the same needs and the same fears of giving it all away.

gallagher
04 jul 78

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

1978-07-04

Tuesday, July 4th, 1978

 
  Paused for a moment on the edge of all the future
     all our lives will surely tangle or unweave now
     and all of these potentials,
     like hands on my shoulder, steady me.
  So let it begin and all the rest of my life go on
     I no longer wait or care for the past to resurrect itself
     this life can be invested in my future now
  I can weave and sort my friends and lovers into the days of my life
     I want to walk out each day excited
     about what could happen again
     and care nothing for what has gone by
  I've been too long tangled with the old ways
     so carefully unknotting our lives and feelings
     learning that exquisite patience that lies half way
     between compassion and self preservation
  But, its done... let me depart and begin anew
     this time not to bury my freedom with love and security
     or to hold myself untouched by love's whip and passion
  I want to find that balance point there in my heart, between...
     there, where on the edge of my best,
     I can live each day like it was the last
  I want to dance to life's mysteries and paradoxes
     as the fountains dance to the wind and the mimes to the crowd
     these things are not to weep for
  and, sometimes ... in those graceful but oh so brief moments,
     perhaps in a lover's eyes or in a passage of my son's growth
     I'll see something behind it all ...
     timeless ... smiling thru at me
  Brother Methuselah, here in all of us as we gamble our lives
     untouched yet compassionate ... he waits for us to begin
     and he smiles at us, a spiritual joy and promise within.

 
                                 gallagher

 
                                 07-04-78

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —