KH again *— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
You can feel through her like glass
her empathy is so natural
you can feel her womanliness
and little girl
whenever she looks at you
She’s a siren and I’m so easily hypnotized
she virtually pulls men to her
for the feel of her is … genuine, is woman,
is passion, is sensuous
Something to covet, to possess
if only for hours
To touch her deep sultry womanliness
through her transparent empathy
through those brown eyes windows
of her made to be loved soul
is a joy to make simple sex pale.
gallagher
09-10-78 – about kathleen a.
long beach
Archive for September, 1978
1978-09-10 KA again
Sunday, September 10th, 19781978-09-11
Monday, September 11th, 1978The concert continues … the players rearrange themselves— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
careful not to lose your identity as the roles change
what you are must be independent of who you’re with
or you can lose yourself if they leave.
The evening allowed me my time alone
the music, the running, the book by Irwin Shaw
that Kathy gave me … I think on every page…she read this.
I’m thirty … is it so bad … I love … am loved
if someone comes, stays or leaves … is it so bad?
can it be so bad if I am constant, if I can resist
the maddening urge to ‘need’ love in order to feel OK
resist the urge to invest myself
at the first sign of acceptance from another.
Just love them as they are, as they come…
am I a coward … Kathi said I hedge my bets
but she says this from inside a marriage
I just don’t know … I’ll invest all I can
without losing myself or my beliefs
and if its too hard, I’ll pull back.
I cannot do better
win or lose
and so the concert continues….
gallagher
11 september 78
1978-09-12
Tuesday, September 12th, 1978Sometimes I wonder if I’m ever going to rest— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
life keeps building up, relentless pressing tests
your heart, your mind, your patience all at war
until … my feeling mount and I want to cry, ‘No more!’
I know (believe) there is a why though I can barely hold the thread
to gather from this chaos the one, the essential thing
I need to learn to exist all on my own
my views and mind intact, my integrity gone full ring
to bear pain without destruction and feel joy without the need of it
to center sure against all tests and save a place to breath
To press myself against life’s tests without this essential thing
is just to waste my life unraveling, …string by string
gallagher
12 september 78