MEDITATIONS— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
I resolve that the most important thing confronting me
is the task of becoming what I want to become.
I recognize that, when at brief moments, I become conscious,
I know what I want.
And that what I want is to retain this awareness
and there is no way to do this
short of wanting it more than anything else.
I want to become what I want when I am conscious.
I want to be the master of my physical body’s(mind’s) condition
within those limits that my age and genetic inheritance impose.
And if faith or will power
can gain me more than that
then I want that too.
My body (mind) is mine if I will claim it.
I want the manifestation of my consciousness
to become my conscious foreground
and the details of my life; its work, its involvements,
to become the background.
but its details must be executed to perfection
because my consciousness of their execution is a reflection
of my deeper commitment to conscious awareness
in all that I do.
It is not that I lack the ability to conceive what I want
in my moments of clarity.
It is more that I cannot maintain the awareness
of what I want.
I slip back into unconsciousness; physical gratifications,
into my unconscious animal reactions
to each moment’s passing stimuli.
Its not that I should deny my physical nature
but that I should experience it without lapse
of awareness of my deeper want…
to remain conscious.
04-09-80
Portland, Maine
Archive for the ‘Spiritual’ Category
1980-04-09 MEDITATIONS
Wednesday, April 9th, 19801980-11-03
Monday, November 3rd, 1980Deja vu … when time’s sequential walls dissolve— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —
as if the fabric of time itself has folded …
The strange feeling of remembering the remembering
and the astonishment at the contrast
between the logical impossibility of it
and the undeniable and unsolicited
certainty of it
Some people believe sequential time is an illusion
which covers a deeper timeless truth
and that these sequential perceptions of ours
are the necessary toys of our spiritual child selves
Much as our science and logic give us security
against the naked responsibilities inherent
in our understandings of the spiritual and non-logical
underpinnings of life
So, perhaps, sequential time serves as our first rudimentary
perception of time’s deeper form
and that beneath this sequential guise, it lies around us
everywhere and always, at once, equidistant
and immediately available to those
who have shed logical and sequential modes
for more direct methods of perception.
03 Nov 80
1983-07-27 Awake
Wednesday, July 27th, 1983
Awake
Awareness; so easy to conceive, so hard to maintain
and each time I let it slip I know
sooner or later that I've lost it
when I awake, adrift, again.
No formula will do it, only doing it will.
As the knife hones to the sharpening stone,
so I must go into it ... ever into it
leaving all thoughts of 'it' behind.
Food, sleep, exercise, work, loving and seeing
are but a few names of the places I've slept.
Bhagwan, Jesus, Buddha, Lao Tzu, and Mohammad
are but a few names of those
who have called us to awake.
Here I write to make tangible the meditation
but this paper and ink are not it.
Here I am awake and want to stay so
a baby Buddha crawling towards the light.
gallagher
27 july 83 - Irvine, CA
— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —