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1985-12-11

Wednesday, December 11th, 1985

As the song says,
“Now it begins, those needles and pins”.

Monday, when I left Lise, it was hard, but necessary.
Tuesday, I could still taste the tenderness of parting.
Wednesday, …
comes the emptiness and waiting
for this hole in my heart to fill.

The beingness of things
just seems to hiss around me now
like a radio left between stations…
Godot … I’m waiting for Godot.

gallagher
11 dec 85

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

1985-12-11

Wednesday, December 11th, 1985

Comes the winter’s wait
the afternoon’s dying so quickly
the light low and sharp
incandescent, the dying leaves
against the darkening blue.

It waits out there for me,
fate with cold hands
come to claim me.

gallagher
11 dec 85

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —

1985-12-12

Thursday, December 12th, 1985

I’m learning from Shirley MacLaine’s book,
“Dancing in the Light”, where she talks about Vassy
and I’m learning from Lise, this last month,
that, for some people, there is no moment for feeling
but now.

They see love and pain and chance
as inseparably bound;
this moment, they love, the next, they change
and there is, for them, no contradiction.

Life is passion and pain, sunlight and rain.
They live both sides and bear love and loss
but they do not run from the pain and insecurity
to hide in promises or stagnant relationships.

I’m just waking up to such courage at 38
and Lise and Anthony
say they’re tired and ready to settle down.
To find someone they can grow old with…
all these years … have I awoken too late?

gallagher
12 dec 85

— Copyright 1965-2008 by Dennis Gallagher —